it took me 14 years to understand the harsh reality, 15 years to learn to be optimistic, 16 years to be able to embrace challenges , 17 years to adapt to changes and 18 years to be able to let go...
yes, i still have a long way to go.
i guess i alway think of the most surreal things since young.
and ive been always seeking the truth in life, just like anyone else,
but even if ive found my purpose,
i still choose not to believe it..
what has exactly came over me?
me, myself dont understand what im thinking.
yes.this might be as contradicting as it can be.
sometimes,i really hope that time will pass by so that i could start afresh.
a complete anew of everything. just like 2004 passed by in a blink.
even though i know that it's all about escaping and escaping, but what could i do besides that??
somebody enlighten me,please.
yet i dread the idea of changes quite a lot.
it's so scary to see how time files so hastily.
and it really makes the time that ive left in sch seemingly shorter. with my wonderful fren even though im sure that i will meet up for sure.
but i do wish that all these would quickly come to an end as well.
i suppose i appear to be very carefree to the people ard me.
even a pop auntie of mine say i look so young. like a lil girl without worries. mind you, she thought im still sec3 for god's sake.
maybe it's because of my optimism towards life.
i just dont understand somehow, one can get so upset about issues over issues. the same one again and again.
im just sick and tired of all shits stuff if i were you/
life is short. it's a journey to enjoy not a journey of worries and doubts. You gota move on...
but im definately not someone without worries.
i think im just too sensitive and easily hurt.
For all i thank God.
He is always there for me. to be in my companionless.
Cause i know for sure that He's the one and only who always listen to all my grumbles.
I dounet anyone could have such a big heat as Him to accept whoever im
He know everything. every singles shit stuffs im going thru.
and hope to ease my torture.
oh lord, please fills me with a god-shaped heart.
penned.
4/03/2005 08:52:00 AM