Saturday, November 20, 2004
Feeling an old sense of lethargy,feeling detached,confused, bored, sick, tired...wth...everything so irritating...i wish i could just not care about them all. So many things on my mind. Things which are some of my responsiblity...but doesnt stop me from feeling more sian- about it...ahhh...frigfrigfrig
Guess what again... I was called to report as early as 9.30am in the morning... when i am only suppose to report at 10.15am.
And again...
I came back hm
LATE. till my mom wld call me to stop work and come hm to rest.And it was raining...so mom fetched me home...
I'm numbed to the word 'hurt'.Does it matter much?It doesn't anymore.Not blaming you or so..it's just destiny.Life is just like a roller coaster with ups and downs.My life has always been so unpredictable...so just like you. My determination + patience seems to gone to a waste.I don't yearn to stay in this place any longer.I wanna be freed from troubles and everything.All I'm asking for is a simple life with happiness.
How scary can love be?How incredible can love be?When you've fallen into this trap..you're blinded by it.Vision narrowed.Imagination runs wild easily.
My heart will pounds a million times faster when i saw ur pic..but at the same time it stops beating.Im just bloody tired of the way u
USED TO treat me...so called the hot-and-cold treatment! hahas...!!!!
How incredible can that be? well..im just flooded with too many incredibles stuffs in the store that got me into such incredibles shitty stuffs...
Why do i really feel this way? i never ever used to care. Why cant i just go back to my own self? The REAL me where nothing could really upset me, where is aint as interesting or eventful.but it was simple and everything else was easy to decipher.
ARHS...........................................................................
is anyone free to go to the beach with me to scream all my hearts out?
I most certainly have no idea why i have become like this. nevermind....
I bought Dan Brown books again today! i was too tempted. Yahs...i *agrees** with jing that i will definately go broke by just looking at my wishlist. it's darn long....and only two got cancel out!!! or rather i bought them.
Sunday is off day!!
whoopedeeee!!!!
Meeting someone on sunday. I really don haf time to trim my hair. Oh mans....I was this busy and occupied...I wana rebond my hair again. Guess i will do it nxt year bahs...
Hopefully i have $$$
I was out of the deliemma i was in ydt. I think i have decided to stay. i have still yet the time to tell hs.
Prolly i will tell him before the nxt schedule is out. Anws, i bought christmas gift for qing and sera already...and i think they are gona like it.
Most likely i wld be able to attended my family's christams party...it just so -sad sad-!!! But at least im not wasting my time off that day...I am requesting from a half day off frm Zack. and i presumme he has already approved. After that i wld prolly join band for a rehearsal...yay!!! so looking forward lehs...
Oh yahs, i have been missing out SGI since i started work. (sad case) i dun even noe whos out. can someone updat update me...hahahha!!! Is daphne still in? how about the whinky-pointy sly?
hmmm...maybe i shld get my bro to tape it down for me every thursday and fridays.....
I felt sad and worried for dad. He just got into an accident ydt after knocking off from work. Bloody lorry driver cut into his way. Frigging ass. (sry for the language used) But still he denied it was his fault!!!
Well...my dad wasnt worried cause he has got witness...but still haiz... im worried. Dad been out the whole day earning a living for the family...and i prolly just gota stop my habit of buying unnecessaries stuffs if possible.
How abt me stooping to visit shopping malls? okaes...i will try. But it takes time.
Getting late...Im off to bed...working tml again...
TIREDZ...>>>
penned.
11/20/2004 03:47:00 AM