Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Before i go into any form of discontent-ments(is there such word),...
I received 3 sms during PD lsn. Lucki the sms keep me 'occupied' in a way. When i flip opened my phone.
Wow! 3 unread msges...I tot it was from so and so... but i was wrong...SO WRONG! It wasnt.
It's was from Katherine Soo(the lecturer)...she inform me regarding a meeting next saturday.
Yay! i am selected for the Thailand-Surin trip. I dunoe why...the excitment is just fading off...
I will be away for 3weeks...ppl don't miss my smile and craps kaes? HEHeHEz...
It's not easy at all to write something down.
You think you have the words to put down??? but everytime you try to get it down they slip out of your freaking mind. Often i am lost for words when i starts to write...
but recently, i am having more 'voice' on my blog...(it's looonnngggg)
and i know what causes me for that..and i shall not go further on that...
I realised that i can only pour out my discontents, sorrows onto my blog...and not anyone else beside my beloved parents (hardly had the chance to talk to them sometimes..they are either too tired or to busy with work)...and i really don't wish to see them worried about me...
I am a grown-up. I should be able to handle my own stuff, my own mess...
Sometimes i thought..whats life about? Whats family for? Whats dinner for? whats home for? a chalet or hotel for us?
Yeah, we did some catching-ups during dinner...
Often we say good nights, mornings...but its getting off as we get out of the house at diff timings..
I am bless with such loving parents who cares for me and my brother when no one elses does...
But there always somethings that pervent me from conveying my message to my mom. Why? Shouldnt daughters be closer to their moms? Yet, i am closer to my daddy. Why am i the opposite? Yea, say i am one-in-a-million? nah...i remember someone told me that...am i really?
Perhaps, i am closer to my dad since young...resulting me building a barrier between me and my mom...
I wish for that barrier to FALL.
Till then,
Dear Wai Po,
Before you go for the operation tmr. I wish u all the best and may you pull through...Dont't worry, God will alwaes be by your side, he will always be your guardian angel.
I am sry, i wun be able to send you off for the operation as i have classes, i hope you understand...Mom will be with you tmr. She has taken her day off.
I will pray for you. God bless you.Amen.
Your soon nu.
penned.
9/22/2004 08:52:00 PM