epiphanies everydaytrack!
and like all other previous days that i go running, with every step i take out, i remember how it used to be.
the mixture of fear(rush against target) and anticipation and the quickened heart rate. the purposeful slow breathings that i have to force myself to take whenever i feel it happening.
when your veins and your blood are doused and soaked with cold fire, adrenaline. this a powerful thing. it can drive many mad or even cause some to pee in their pants.I rmb my dearest pal during IVP. for the first time, i believe!
the problem is, i dont know when the scale tipped more to the dread factor than the anticipation. and it is my regret somewhat. but it's never more than 50% dreading.
I still love track. VERY MUCH!
for all those who think im crazy, im not. i just like to run for several reasons. first and foremost, obviously so i don't balloon to the size of a.. i cant imagine it myself.
and also because the physical satisfaction i derive from this form of exercise makes me feel very very satisfied indeed. a great runner once told me she loved to run with muscle aches. (:
i love it when i see veteran runners at spe fully decked in running gear and doing their thing.
you dont have to be fast and speedy or run insane distances. you just gotta love it and what it brings.
one day, i'll be one of them.
penned.
3/07/2006 10:39:00 AM