Saturday, November 19, 2005
It is done, and God is the one and only. I felt at ease last night, because I found the faith and courage I didnt dare bring it out.Then i wonder,why is there still a tinge of discomfort within my heart?
Something tugging on my heartstrings,saying that smth isnt right,yet. And then thoughts begin coming in, and i entertained them.Getting them regiestered and trying to make sense of them. I find myself feeling, confused. Or maybe, some unknown and completely unfamiliar feeling,perhaps.
I know im not really making any sense but people are like that at times. Where you find yourself not knowing how to express yourself and you turn to the most impractical things. Maybe i just know that this isnt it yet. That maybe things arent as simple as they may seem. And i wld confuse myself in them, tangling myself up in the most unnecessary. Then i panic to think that smth's terribly wrong.
I really dislike saying Goodbyes.It's either having someone leaving me, or ending something i hold close to my heart. Either way, it'l hurt wont it? i cant stand looking back into my past, trying to dig up remnants of past hurts,thinking there still ways to mend them so that they wont hurt so mucg anymore. Ive this problem of
picking up and not being able to let goenuff said.
shoot my damn star-glazing trngs.
penned.
11/19/2005 08:53:00 PM