ive been thinking about those times. the times walking, laughing, sharings, the tickets. i miss it. i miss it so much. cruel meanpok u. Those are just my random thoughts, are they? it was overwhelming months, i missed seeing you. but it's such disappointed in the end.
i was really looking forward to a great day today, but somehow my mood just went to an all-time low. I just can't believe that popped up in my mind. I have been asking myself since. The thing is I wasnt the one who wanted to think about it, it just came up on its own. Oh fuck this screwed up shit. My mind works in a shitty manner. I hate it.
I dont know what to make of my life now. I'm working full time in a job i dont like, but with collegues i like. It seems less than perfect. I wish i had more than 24 hours a day and more energy to last me longer for shopping sprees. Maybe it is really true that you cant have both sides of the coin. It seems everytime i get something i lose something in return. Is it just me not nowing how to manage or is that the way things work?
I have stopped blogging for the long because i dont wanna confront my own feelings. Blogging makes me think and write, and for the longest time, i dont even wanna think. I just wanna do what i should and get on with days. I felt like shit the previous day but still went to work, and ended up going home with mild fever. thank God. Then i just laid there and cried in my pillow. It was just shitty. I dont know why i'm feeling it again. I hope it goes away on its own.
[editedd//]
was in school for some shooting yesterday! gosh~ had to pose for a 100m sprint with a starting block and some 200m slow jog. and i was the ONLY girl there together with weixiang and our vice cap,kumar.
Despite the sorching hot sun, shooting went on well. and we had only a few NGs...i guess, we're pretty good actors and actresses ya? ha!!! and i was told that it's gonna be publish in some magazines. wheeeee!!!!
and i just cant wait to see those prettaye faces and sexaye legs of ours!
penned.
10/07/2005 12:51:00 PM