Thursday, February 17, 2005
I am still finding it hard to fully focus, which is definitely not a good sign.
suddenly all the paranoia is setting in. what if my brain just refuses to work on any one of the days on the test dates and so on?
and yesterday...
The memory of my quite throughly mishandled english oral chose to manifest itself, when dad brought home the 2MOE letters! I WAS PRETTY SHOCK!
bringing with it the dark shadow of doubt.the fear that i would somehow screw up my english again. somehow i just don't have any faith in my abilities. a bit hard to have faith in yourself when you keep feeling that you haven't been studying enough, really...Ive always feel i've not study enough anyway.
always feeling regreatful.
But this time round i really hope i'll be able to make.
and then there's all the weird discomforts. the slight hints of headaches, the fever, and the tiny flu virus that keeps bugging me. through the paper along with my exams. indeed it's really mind over body huh?
and now for the o-level result paranoia.
oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh.On one hand i feel that i'm going to be very sorely disappointed, and on the other hand i keep wanting to feel that i -will- do okay. ugh. shall not think about it.
i swear my stomach sinks a little lower each time
someone wishes me good luck for it, or whenever i think about it. ughhh.
CAN SOMEONE please tell me that my fears will be unfounded..
till the msytery day.
anyway,anyone knows how to get the singpass? perhaps i'll need to popby j8's building soon any takers to follow??ha!!haha!!
and sidenote to Mel:
STARBUCKS STARHUB still RAWKS!! da FREE INCOMING CALLS. i'm loving it the most. HAHA!!
penned.
2/17/2005 06:50:00 PM