Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Firstly...thankz cch for wishing me luck in the morning! Appreciate greatly...and thankz for waking me up too...coz that's like 7am in the morning...ya..so late.
...then there came yalai's wishing too! Wow!!! great man! I tot if i din do well for this paper im gona kill myself...so hopefully..i will still be able to blog after the results are out hor. hahah!!!
i was waiting...well, nt exactly la. Coz i knew it wun come...it juz strike me somehow from the way it seems...
Today's math exam was H.O.R.R.B.L.E.....
I was half way thru the paper n my stomach starts to grumble...I M HUNGRY!!! coz i had only one slice of bread in the morning...too nervous to eat la....and i m always so full in the morning...ya. No appetite these few days too...*sob*sob*
oots...n i think the gal nxt to me cud hear my hunger pangS!!! omg! I m so paiseh... hhehe!
so i decided to 'fill' my stomach, to stop it from make any more noise...n i gulp down my bottle of water...
And ya..it did work! No more glu-lo, glu-lo!!! sound anymore...
after an hr or so...it strike me that i needed the toilet.!!! HIGH-TIDE!!!!
ohmigosh~.....and the freaking air-con is so cold! Which idoit has turn it to the lowest temp??? n mind u i was wearing a jacket! Mayb coz i m feeling hungry..tts y im feeling extremely cold!
After the lecturers collected our paper...i grab my bag and off i fly to the toilet!!! Sheeee......muhahha!!! felt so relieved after all..!!!
and there i headed home...
I saw this two school gal...i think they are from
mari-stella high?!?i duont know wat's the sch. oh, they were caryying the same bag, same... and one of them behaving so boyish..
n i thought of somethings...sometimes i felt that girls are girls BESTEST fren ever...i dunoe wat's in me la. But really sometimes i felt that! OMG! how?!? m i turning too fast a les?
Perhaps that's stages of puberty? Well, nah. Coz i think my puberty ends le...coz i stop growing taller anymore! haiz..im shortie la can?!
haiya.haiz...dun worry i wont! juz that now i felt rather detached somehow la cn?! Bleah~ me! whatever! i repeat,-I WONT!!!
I still have slightest bit of hope frm something.....
you know, we weren't really that close somehow. Ermm, i dunoe how to say but do you get what I'm trying to say?
I duno why, but I treasure your advice and opinions. It seems to sink into my thick skull whenever u said somethings...Somehow, it seemed so right. I was so dumb dumb to hope you will...but u didn't, I have always assume u are busy in a way or the other..like u always do...
So I took the initiative, afterall, it WAS my problem. ya. NEVER urs.
And there were many others who stood by me, and I realised I was still......It (used to)???!!?? matter to me, wat u tot. I duno why...but now, i was kind of numb by the feeling...im getting too used to it ALREADY.
you seems so cold all of a sudden, i tot i did somethinng wrong, or did u saw the glimp of light somewhere in ur life?!anyhow,i think u did,yeah..i send u my regards...but i nv knew u were tt.U proved me wrong! So i tot maybe I've known it all alone just that needed someone to put them into words, shove it down my throat and hit me hard at my heads.
So,maybe u say I needed affirmation?!?
Ya. My emotions overrule me almost all the times. While you stood unfazed at every turn of life.
sigh.
for all i say...thank you very much.
I had tried to heck the problem or numb the feeling...but i failed....so cn u pls?!? shut all windows...
haiz.i dunoe wat im thinking right now. Heck la. Bo Chap.
Perhaps i needed a dose of running...ya.
Im off to running again.~ tada~
penned.
10/27/2004 04:20:00 PM