Wednesday, October 27, 2004
back frm run,dinner...blah blah blah...U noe those usual stuffs?! Yeah.
As i was taking a shower juz now,
It suddenly dawned on me that with a blink of an eye..2004 is cuming to an end in a matter of 2months or so. No wonder ppl say,
time flies.
In retrospect, I seriously think that I havent done
nothing anything in significant.
No wait. I think i did! yeah.i did!!!
I went Bangkok. It was really an eye opener for me to know what life in other countries differ beyond my own homeland are like, and i felt i am so blessed and so fortunate. I truly gained and learnt alot, and i've matured in many ways...more street-savvy i guessed.
And how about me working in a property agency as a admin clerk? Popular? That's where i learnt how a business functioned and a lil bit of humanity. For this, i learnt alot too!!! And for a mere 4months or so..i gave my parents my salary..or rather,to be specific..part of it.
Working life is hard. U get to meet all sorts of people frm all walks of life. People who are good,people who are bad. It's an experience for me. That's when i thought I should study hard, achieve my goals and live a comfortable happy life.
Yeah.People ought to have clear goals and ambitions, to work hard for it and never look back nor regret. Yeah.i have a goal. A mission in life to accomplish.
But sometimes, i felt so exhausted from loads and loads of school work that i wanted to put a stop to everything in life. Or rather i was learning for the sake of earning a livelihood lest i become a
spinster.
but,i thought of my parents who had bring me up frm a lil rebellious girl to a mature lady. I thank Dad for bringing up independence in me from young, i was left to look after myself when dad n mom was away for work at the age of ermm...i forgot. But, i learnt to stand up for my own rights, to build up my confidence and courage.
Unlike my bro,so pamped by mom perhaps because he carries my dad's surname? Well, i am not saying that mom's being
zhong na qing niu but i guess because he is younger...
For my bro, i would say he's still in the immediate stage of growing...
Gone were the days when i used to
'look down' and speak to him. Now, he's taller than me and my mom and mom was saying that he's going to tower over dad real soon. Hhahahz!
Life's like that. The children grows up. The parents grow older. Great-grandmom,Grandparent into their twilight years. That's life in a cycle. Life's a transient.
I like the beginning of each year. Cz it's a brand new start for me and for youu and i hope to get my basic theory test. Like i like year-ends too! That's where festive season...Christmas! ,Hoilday moods sets in. Oh man,What a paradox!
But im for sure
i'll miss being 17, it's when im in-between being a teen and a young adult. for the fact that many sweet things happen or rather i make some things 'happen'. ya,u noe.
I dont know y sometimes i procrastinate things too much...till it slip out of my way. But heys, i m gona kick away those bad habits in 2005 where life's starts afresh for me. I reckon the most important thing for me to do is not to
think so much and take things a step at a time....
As for another part of my life. I would say i WAS rather put on a roller-coaster ride,say?!? Whatever.For now and the past few years, it's always been me and myself.
And for youu...i shldnt have blog much more or rather say anything more...coz i
REALLY had enough of all those stuffs...
tired.
I shld learn to treasure those ppl who care for me...sry, anyone if i had been pissing u ppl off...i'm sry..i was juz put off by some rubbish stuffs...
I am getting so so so tired of sch work and other rubbish le..holy shit me off, pls!
My life's getting so
stagnant already. I wld wake up in the morning...did usual stuffs, watch some tv and back me to some
high toxicity of facts and more facts.
I wld always turn to my blog to purge more n more, since both my parents are too bz with their work. Im so missing my childhood days already!
But i always look forward for certain time of the day. I knew for sure
u wldnt. But i was still rather stubborn n dumb enuff...to actually wait and wait till almost dawn.
*smackz face*
For now, i will do whatever that comes my way. Life's always been a cycle. Live,eat,die.
So,
in short!
Seize the day and cherish every day,from now on...coz u never know what will happen to u.
God bless everyone. Amen.
penned.
10/27/2004 11:58:00 PM
